My "What I Ate" food logs haven't been completely accurate the past couple of days.
On both nights, I had an overwhelming urge to eat again at about 11:30 or midnight, after I'd already tallied up all of my food for the day. On Monday night, I was cleaning and felt a little woozy or something, and I really wanted an apple or raisins or some other fruit. I don't usually keep fruit at the house, so I ate some deli slices and Mt. Olive Splenda-sweetened gherkins and a little mustard instead.
I had the same thing happen last night, except I kept it to just the deli slices and pickles. I don't know exactly how many calories I consumed, but I'm sure it was less than 100 on both nights. I was still firmly under 1000 calories for my daily totals, and yesterday I was probably still under 900. The sweet pickles have practically 0 calories (the jar says a serving of 1 pickle has 0 calories, but 1 carb - so in real life that probably means each pickle has 4 calories.) The Hormel Natural deli slices I used are low-calorie and practically all protein.
I'm not sure how to categorize this behavior. On one hand, I ate food that I hadn't planned on, and that's a habit that could theoretically lead to more transgressions down the road. I have to be vigilant about letting bad eating behaviors slip back into my routine.
On the other hand, I think my body needed that food. I didn't have that crazed feeling that usually accompanies compulsive eating. I bet my blood sugar was low, especially on Monday night, considering that I felt better shortly after eating. I don't feel like beating myself up over something like this.
So I'm not going to. I'm going to be honest about having eaten off-plan for the sake of posterity, but I'm not going to feel guilty about it. In fact, because I think this was a result of not fueling my body properly, I've decided to build in an additional solid meal of deli slices and string cheese for the next few days. This way, I'm eating the same protein-rich foods from my "binges," but they are measured, accounted for, and incorporated earlier in the day. Also, this gives me less leeway to eat little snacks like pecans and extra pudding mix in my Fage yogurt.