Saturday, May 22, 2010

What I Ate: May 21, 2010

The scale hit a new low this morning: 175.7!

Let's hope I don't sabotage myself this weekend visiting the fam nor next week at camp. I'm planning to bring a mechanical bathroom scale to keep me accountable.

Anyway, food:
  • Buttery caramel protein frosty: 1/2 cup cottage cheese (80 kcals, 15g protein, 5g carbs, 0g fat), 1/2 scoop Inspire cinnamon cappuccino protein (55 kcals, 15g protein, 0.5g carbs, 0g fat), 1 tbsp. vanilla SF/FF Jello pudding mix (15 kcals, 3g carbs), 1 tbsp. fat-free I Can't Believe It's Not Butter (5 kcals), and SF dulce de leche and French vanilla syrups. Total - (155 kcals, 30g protein, 8.5g carbs, 0g fat).
  • 2 Greek-inspired mini preserved lemon chicken patties (104 kcals, 16g protein, 4g net carbs, 1.2g fat) with 81 grams Indian roasted eggplant (33 kcals, 1.2g protein, 3g net carbs, 0.3g fat). Total - (137 kcals, 17.2g protein, 7g net carbs, 1.5g fat).
  • 2 more Greek-inspired mini preserved lemon chicken patties (104 kcals, 16g protein, 4g net carbs, 1.2g fat). Trying to make sure I eat the whole batch before heading out of town next week.
  • 4 LaNouba sugar-free marshmallows (54 kcals, 0.8g protein, 10.4g net carbs). I actually ate two of these yesterday, but forgot to count them so tacking them onto today.
  • 1/2 vanilla creme Oh Yeah! ready-to-drink protein in 2 decaf coffees (110 kcals, 16g protein, 1.7g carbs, 4.5g fat)
  • The other half of the Oh Yeah! in a Starbucks iced decaf americano with a splash of Torani SF chocolate syrup (110 kcals, 16g protein, 1.8g carbs, 4.5g fat)
  • My last Greek-inspired mini preserved lemon chicken patty (52 kcals, 8g protein, 2g net carbs, 0.6g fat), tomato (7 kcals, 1g net carbs), and the last of my Indian roasted eggplant (33 kcals, 1.2g protein, 3g net carbs, 0.3g fat), plus a 100-calorie pack cocoa-roasted almonds (100 kcals, 3g protein, 2g net carbs, 8g fat). Total - (192 kcals, 12.2g protein, 8g net carbs, 8.9g fat).
  • Strawberries and white chocolate protein shake: 1/2 cup fat-free cottage cheese (80 kcals, 15g protein, 5g carbs, 0g fat), 1/2 scoop Matrix strawberry cream protein powder (55 kcals, 11.5g protein, 1g carbs, 0.8g fat), 1 tbsp. SF/FF Jello cheesecake pudding mix (15 kcals, 3g carbs), SF white chocolate syrup, lotsa ice. Total - (150 kcals, 26.5g protein, 9g carbs, 0.8g fat).
  • 4 Bariatric Advantage calcium lozenges (16 kcals, 4g net carbs)
  • 2 Celebrate orange multivitamins (10 kcals, 2g net carbs)
  • 2 Celebrate grape iron + c (10 kcals, 3g net carbs)
Total:
1,048 calories
134.7g protein
51.4% kcals from protein
60.1g net carbs
22.9% kcals from net carbs
21.4g fat
18.4% kcals from fat.
Missed my exercise today - didn't get home from work till after midnight! Argh!

Friday, May 21, 2010

Travel Planning, Then v. Now

Next week, I'm going to be in Missouri working at a leadership camp for college students, and I couldn't be more excited.

I was a counselor at the camp last May as well, just 5 weeks after my surgery. (See food logs and commentary here.) I thought I was totally on top of things. I brought every morsel of food that I planned to eat that week with me - but, turns out I didn't have any place to refrigerate it. I didn't want to draw attention to myself, I guess, so I didn't ask any of the staff for help with that. So, I kept the food (mostly vegetarian meat substitutes) in my sweltering room and hoped for the best. Of course, it spoiled a little over halfway through the week (Genius!) Thank God I was on regular foods and could make do with the cafeteria.

I feel so much more relaxed headed into this year's camp, for a few reasons.

(1) I'm not bringing anything that needs refrigeration. I may buy some things like yogurt and Babybel cheese once I get there, and I have some shelf-stable almond milk that I'll keep in the staff lounge's fridge, but I'm primarily bringing protein powders, RTDs, jerky, and nuts. The RTDs will go in my checked baggage, but I'll have plenty of powdered protein and snacks in my carry-on.

(2) I'm planning to eat in the cafeteria with everyone else. I've gotten to a point now where I can navigate all kinds of restaurants. Buffets and cafeterias are particularly WLS-friendly, I think, because you can just get a bunch of tiny bits of things and eat them, and there are usually at least a few good protein options. I know there will be a salad bar for every meal. I know there will be an omelet station in the morning. I'm going to eat a couple chunks of fruit every night during "snack" (but, unlike one night last year, I'm not going to eat pizza toppings.)

In other words, despite my oft-reported struggles with compulsive eating, food doesn't scare me anymore. Yes, there will be temptation, but I can do hard things.

(3) Everyone's going to know I had surgery, or at least that I'm eating differently. I've lost nearly 100 pounds since they saw me last; I was in the low 270s or high 260s in late May 2009. It feels easier to eat small portions in front of them after having some success.

I'll still be logging my food and exercise daily. I purchased a travel exercise mat for self-guided yoga and Pilates DVDs, and I'm also bringing some of my Leslie Sansone DVDs. There's a track there too, so I'll probably do some walking. It's going to be great!

What I Ate: May 20, 2010

Happy 90th birthday, Big Mama!!!

  • Strawberries and white chocolate protein shake: 1/2 cup fat-free cottage cheese (80 kcals, 15g protein, 5g carbs, 0g fat), 1/2 scoop Matrix strawberry cream protein powder (55 kcals, 11.5g protein, 1g carbs, 0.8g fat), 1 tbsp. SF/FF Jello cheesecake pudding mix (15 kcals, 3g carbs), SF white chocolate syrup, lotsa ice. Total - (150 kcals, 26.5g protein, 9g carbs, 0.8g fat).
  • Tuna and almonds: 1 2.6-oz. packet Starkist Chunk Light tuna (80 kcals, 18g protein, 0g net carbs, 0.5g fat) and 1 100-calorie pack natural walnuts & almonds (100 kcals, 4g protein, 2g net carbs, 9g fat). Total - (180 kcals, 22g protein, 2g net carbs, 9.5g fat). Wasn't planning to eat then, but I was so hungry after my workout!
  • 2 Greek-inspired mini preserved lemon chicken patties (104 kcals, 16g protein, 4g net carbs, 1.2g fat) with 81 grams Indian roasted eggplant (33 kcals, 1.2g protein, 3g net carbs, 0.3g fat). Total - (134 kcals, 17.2g protein, 7g net carbs, 1.5g fat).
  • Pure Protein cookies & creme RTD in 2 decaf coffees (120 kcals, 23g protein, 2g net carbs, 1.5g fat)
  • 13 (one serving) Miss Meringue sugar-free chocolate meringue cookies (45 kcals, 5.3g protein, 3.2g net carbs, 0g fat) - ate these while waiting on AAA to jump my car after work :-/
  • Omelet: 1/2 cup egg beaters (60 kcals, 12g protein, 2g carbs, 0g fat), 2 strips Jennie-O extra-lean bacon (40 kcals, 6g protein, 0g carbs, 1g fat), 16 grams red onion (6 kcals, 1.2g net carbs), 12 grams avocado (22 kcals, 2.2g fat), 1 slice fat-free Kraft American cheese (25 kcals, 4g protein, 2g carbs, 0g fat)and 81 grams Indian roasted eggplant (33 kcals, 1.2g protein, 3g net carbs, 0.3g fat). Total - (186 kcals, 23.2g protein, 8.2g carbs, 3.5g fat).
  • Rich chocolate butter rum protein shake: 1/2 cup fat-free cottage cheese (80 kcals, 15g protein, 5g carbs, 0g fat), 1/2 scoop Nectar chocolate truffle protein (50 kcals, 11.5g protein, 0g net carbs, 0g fat), 1 tbsp. chocolate SF/FF Jello pudding mix (15 kcals, 3g carbs), 1 tbsp. cocoa (10 kcals, 0.5g net carbs), SF Hershey's syrup (8 kcals, 1g net carb), and SF butter rum and chocolate syrups. Total - (163 kcals, 26.5g protein, 9.5g net carbs, 0g fat).
  • 3 Bariatric Advantage calcium lozenges (12 kcals, 3g net carbs)
  • 2 Celebrate orange multivitamins (10 kcals, 2g net carbs)
  • 2 Celebrate grape iron + c (10 kcals, 3g net carbs)
Total:
1,010 calories
143.7g protein
56.9% kcals from protein
48.9g net carbs
19.4% kcals from net carbs
16.8g fat
15.0% kcals from fat.
Exercise: 35 minutes on the elliptical in the AM. A light day.

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

What I Ate: May 19, 2010

  • Milk chocolate-caramel protein frosty: 1/2 cup cottage cheese (80 kcals, 15g protein, 5g carbs, 0g fat), 1/2 scoop Nectar chocolate truffle protein (50 kcals, 11.5g protein, 0g net carbs, 0g fat), 1 tbsp. chocolate SF/FF Jello pudding mix (15 kcals, 3g carbs), and SF dulce de leche and chocolate syrups. Total - (145 kcals, 26.5g protein, 8g carbs, 0g fat). Yum yum yum.
  • 2 Greek-inspired mini preserved lemon chicken patties (104 kcals, 16g protein, 4g net carbs, 1.2g fat) with 40 grams roasted brussels sprouts (15 kcals, 1g protein, 1.8g net carbs, 0.3g fat). Total - (119 kcals, 17g protein, 5.8g net carbs, 1.5g fat).
  • 13 (one serving) Miss Meringue sugar-free chocolate meringue cookies (40 kcals, 5g protein, 3g net carbs, 0g fat) and 1 100-calorie pack natural almonds (100 kcals, 4g protein, 2g net carbs, 9g fat). Total - (140 kcals, 9g protein, 5g net carbs, 9g fat).
  • 1 100-calorie pack natural almonds and walnuts (100 kcals, 3g protein, 1g net carb, 9g fat). I try not to eat 2 servings of nuts in one day, but I needed something to get me through yoga and it was too close to class time to have something dense like tuna. I'd made a protein shake sample with water, but it just didn't taste pouchworthy. Oh well, live and learn.
  • Mediterranean-inspired omelet: 1/2 cup Egg Beaters (60 kcals, 12g protein, 2g carbs, 0g fat) with 2 strips Jennie-O extra-lean turkey bacon (40 kcals, 6g protein, 0g carbs, 1g fat), 75 grams roasted eggplant (33 kcals, 1.2g protein, 3g net carbs, 0.3g fat), 3 sliced olives (15 kcals, 1.5g fat), 1 slice tomato (5 kcals, 1g carbs), and 0.5 oz. fat-free feta (18 kcals, 3.5g protein, 0.5g carbs, 0g fat). Total - (171 kcals, 22.7g protein, 6.5g net carbs, 2.8g fat).
  • Basic chocolate cottage-cheese frosty: 1/2 cup fat-free cottage cheese (80 kcals, 15g protein, 5g carbs, 0g fat), 1 tbsp. cocoa powder (10 kcals, 0.5g net carbs), SF syrups and ice. Total - (90 kcals, 15g protein, 5.5g net carbs, 0g fat). I allowed myself this to push my protein numbers up.
  • Strawberries and white chocolate protein shake: 1/2 cup fat-free cottage cheese (80 kcals, 15g protein, 5g carbs, 0g fat), 1/2 scoop Matrix strawberry cream protein powder (55 kcals, 11.5g protein, 1g carbs, 0.8g fat), 1 tbsp. SF/FF Jello cheesecake pudding mix (15 kcals, 3g carbs), SF white chocolate syrup, lotsa ice. Total - (150 kcals, 26.5g protein, 9g carbs, 0.8g fat).
  • 3 Bariatric Advantage calcium lozenges (12 kcals, 3g net carbs)
  • 4 Bariatric Advantage raspberry calcium citrate chews (60 kcals, 6g net carbs)
  • 2 Celebrate orange multivitamins (10 kcals, 2g net carbs)
  • 2 Celebrate grape iron + c (10 kcals, 3g net carbs)
Total:
1,007 calories
119.7g protein
47.5% kcals from protein (meh. I blame the nuts).
54.8g net carbs
21.8% kcals from net carbs
24.1g fat
21.5% kcals from fat.

Exercise for today was Miles 2 through 5 of the Leslie Sansone 5-Mile Fat Burning Walk DVD in the morning, and I went to basic yoga at City Yoga SC tonight.

One piece of good news: Weight was back in the 170s today!

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

What I Ate: May 18, 2010

  • Caramel protein frosty: 1/2 cup cottage cheese (80 kcals, 15g protein, 5g carbs, 0g fat), 1/2 scoop Inspire cinnamon cappuccino protein (55 kcals, 15g protein, 0.5g carbs, 0g fat), 1 tbsp. vanilla SF/FF Jello pudding mix (15 kcals, 3g carbs), and SF dulce de leche and French vanilla syrups. Total - (150 kcals, 30g protein, 8.5g carbs, 0g fat). Yum yum yum.
  • 2 Greek-inspired mini preserved lemon chicken patties (104 kcals, 16g protein, 4g net carbs, 1.2g fat) with 40 grams roasted brussels sprouts (15 kcals, 1g protein, 1.8g net carbs, 0.3g fat). Total - (119 kcals, 17g protein, 5.8g net carbs, 1.5g fat).
  • 13 (one serving) Miss Meringue sugar-free chocolate meringue cookies (40 kcals, 5g protein, 3g net carbs, 0g fat) and 1 100-calorie pack natural almonds (100 kcals, 4g protein, 2g net carbs, 9g fat). Total - (140 kcals, 9g protein, 5g net carbs, 9g fat).
  • Pure Protein frosty chocolate RTD in a huge iced decaf Americano at Starbucks (120 kcals, 23g protein, 3g net carbs, 1.5g fat)
  • French vanilla cheesecake frosty: 1/2 cup cottage cheese (80 kcals, 15g protein, 5g carbs, 0g fat), 1 tbsp. cheesecake SF/FF Jello pudding mix (15 kcals, 3g carbs), and SF French vanilla syrup. Total - (95 kcals, 15g protein, 8g carbs, 0g fat).
  • Spinach salad (10 kcals, 0.5g protein, 0.5g net carbs, 0g fat) with 2 strips Jennie-O turkey bacon (40 kcals, 6g protein, 0g carbs, 1g fat), 35 grams avocado (60 kcals, 1.2g protein, 0g net carbs, 5g fat), 2 slices tomato (10 kcals, 2g carbs), and 0.5 oz. fat-free feta (18 kcals, 3.5g protein, 0.5g carbs, 0g fat) with simple homemade honey mustard dressing (about 10 calories, 2g carbs). Total - (148 kcals, 11.2g protein, 5g net carbs, 6g fat).
  • Strawberries and white chocolate protein shake: 1/2 cup fat-free cottage cheese (80 kcals, 15g protein, 5g carbs, 0g fat), 1/2 scoop Matrix strawberry cream protein powder (55 kcals, 11.5g protein, 1g carbs, 0.8g fat), 1 tbsp. SF/FF Jello cheesecake pudding mix (15 kcals, 3g carbs), SF white chocolate syrup, vanilla flavoring, lotsa ice. Total - (150 kcals, 26.5g protein, 9g carbs, 0.8g fat).
  • 2 Bariatric Advantage calcium lozenges (8 kcals, 2g net carbs)
  • 4 Bariatric Advantage raspberry calcium citrate chews (60 kcals, 6g net carbs)
  • 2 Celebrate orange multivitamins (10 kcals, 2g net carbs)
  • 2 Celebrate grape iron + c (10 kcals, 3g net carbs)
Total:
1,010 calories
131.7g protein
52.2% kcals from protein
57.3g net carbs
22.7% kcals from net carbs
18.8g fat
16.8% kcals from fat.
Exercise today was the Leslie Sansone Walk Strong DVD in the morning before work. Kind of light, but at least it's one of her more challenging workouts. It involves lots of squats and lunges. I accidentally left my iPod at work, so will be doing another Sansone video in the morning.

You Know This Is a Plus-Size Store, Right?

Talk about a non-scale victory:

On Friday after work, I stopped by Avenue, a plus-size store, to pick up some skirts for work. Even now, over a year after my surgery, I'm still wearing sizes 14 and 16 in skirts, even though I wear sizes 6 and 8 in tops. (I could definitely use a lower body lift.) Anyway, I went to Avenue because one of my favorite work skirts that I've been wearing since September came from there.

The store was quite empty for a Friday afternoon, so the employees were antsy and looking for customers to chat up. I hate salespeople interjecting themselves into my shopping, so I tried to avoid the oddly thin woman sauntering around the sales floor. I was unsuccessful.

Saleswoman: Hey, what can I help you find today?
Me: Umm...well. Umm, where are your skirts? (She takes me to the professional-style skirts.)
Saleswoman: (invasively looking me up and down) What size do you wear, darlin'?
Me: (awkwardly, in disbelief she's asking me such personal questions) Uhhhhhhhhh... I don't really know...?
Saleswoman: (brusquely) 'Cause you know, this is all plus sizes [sic] in here.
Me: (speechless, thinking "OMG, did she just tell me I can't shop here?").

She chatted with me a bit longer about charge cards or some other nonsense, but after she walked away, I slipped out of the store, laughing aloud. This was hilarious, especially since I was wearing a Size 18 skirt at the time (admittedly, a touch too big.)

I've felt like such an imposter in regular stores the past several months. I've even worried that a salesperson is going to walk up to me and straightforwardly tell me I don't belong there. Even now, when salespeople aren't friendly, I assume it's because they think I'm too fat for their store.

Lo and behold, when a salesperson finally confronts me about shopping in the right place, it happens at a plus-size store. To paraphrase The Grateful Dead, what a long, strange trip RNY is!

This encounter lifted my spirits a lot at a time when I really needed it. I've been so frustrated with the stagnation of my weight loss, and I've felt so fat because I seem to be unable to shrink my thighs and midsection. Maybe my remaining concentrated bulk is a little less obvious than I thought?

What I Ate: May 17, 2010

  • Buttery caramel protein frosty: 1/2 cup cottage cheese (80 kcals, 15g protein, 5g carbs, 0g fat), 1/2 scoop Inspire cinnamon cappuccino protein (55 kcals, 15g protein, 0.5g carbs, 0g fat), 1 tbsp. vanilla SF/FF Jello pudding mix (15 kcals, 3g carbs), 1 tbsp. fat-free I Can't Believe It's Not Butter (5 kcals), and SF dulce de leche and French vanilla syrups. Total - (155 kcals, 30g protein, 8.5g carbs, 0g fat). Soooo good! I didn't know what to expect, but this was a total winner.
  • 2 Greek-inspired mini preserved lemon chicken patties (104 kcals, 16g protein, 4g net carbs, 1.2g fat) with 40 grams roasted brussels sprouts (15 kcals, 1g protein, 1.8g net carbs, 0.3g fat). Total - (119 kcals, 17g protein, 5.8g net carbs, 1.5g fat). Very filling. Brussels sprouts will get you every time.
  • 13 (one serving) Miss Meringue sugar-free chocolate meringue cookies (40 kcals, 5g protein, 3g net carbs, 0g fat) and 1 100-calorie pack natural almonds (100 kcals, 4g protein, 2g net carbs, 9g fat). Total - (140 kcals, 9g protein, 5g net carbs, 9g fat).
  • Another buttery caramel protein shake, this time using butterscotch pudding instead of vanilla and with a pinch of salt added: 1/2 cup cottage cheese (80 kcals, 15g protein, 5g carbs, 0g fat), 1/2 scoop Inspire cinnamon cappuccino protein (55 kcals, 15g protein, 0.5g carbs, 0g fat), 1 tbsp. butterscotch SF/FF Jello pudding mix (15 kcals, 3g carbs), 1 tbsp. fat-free I Can't Believe It's Not Butter (5 kcals), and SF dulce de leche and French vanilla syrups. Total - (155 kcals, 30g protein, 8.5g carbs, 0g fat).
  • About 60 grams roasted eggplant (21 kcals, 0.4g protein, 3.8g net carbs, 0g fat).
  • Spinach salad (10 kcals, 0.5g protein, 0.5g net carbs, 0g fat) with 3 strips Jennie-O turkey bacon (60 kcals, 9g protein, 0g carbs, 1.5g fat), 35 grams avocado (60 kcals, 1.2g protein, 0g net carbs, 5g fat), 2 slices tomato (10 kcals, 2g carbs), and 1 slice Kraft fat-free cheddar (25 kcals, 4g protein, 2g carbs, 0g fat) with simple homemade honey mustard dressing (about 10 calories, 2g carbs). Total - (175 kcals, 14.7g protein, 6.5g net carbs, 6.5g fat).
  • Rich chocolate protein frosty: 1/2 scoop Inspire chocolate peanut butter fudge shake (64 kcals, 13g protein, 1.5g net carbs, 0.5g fat), 1/2 cup cottage cheese (80 kcals, 15g protein, 5g carbs, 0g fat), 1 tbsp. cocoa powder (10 kcals, 1g net carbs), 1 tbsp. chocolate SF/FF Jello pudding mix (15 kcals, 3g carbs), 1 tbsp. SF Hershey's chocolate syrup (8 kcals, 0.5g net carbs) and a various SF syrups (chocolate, vanilla, peanut butter). Total - (177 kcals, 28g protein, 11g net carbs, 0.5g fat).
  • 1 98% fat-free turkey wiener (40 kcals, 5g protein, 3g net carbs, 0.5g fat) and 2 slices fat-free cheese (50 kcals, 8g protein, 4g carbs, 0g fat). Total - (90 kcals, 13g protein, 7g net carbs, 0.5g fat).
  • 4 Bariatric Advantage calcium lozenges (16 kcals, 4g net carbs)
  • 2 Celebrate orange multivitamins (10 kcals, 2g net carbs)
  • 2 Celebrate grape iron + c (10 kcals, 3g net carbs)
Total:
1,068 calories
142.1g protein
53.2% kcals from protein
65.1g net carbs
24.4% kcals from net carbs
18g fat
15.2% kcals from fat.
Exercise today was an hour on the elliptical at the office before work.

Monday, May 17, 2010

What I Ate: May 16, 2010

  • Cinnamon vanilla cream protein frosty: 1/2 cup cottage cheese (80 kcals, 15g protein, 5g carbs, 0g fat), 1/2 scoop About Time birthday cake protein (52 kcals, 12.5g protein, 0g carbs, 0g fat), 1 pinch cinnamon, SF vanilla and French vanilla syrup. Total - (132 kcals, 27.5g protein, 5g carbs, 0g fat). This was a little too sweet. It wasn't inedible or anything, but this wasn't my best effort.
  • WLS-Friendly Chick-fil-A-style chicken and egg biscuit: 1 Carbquik paprika biscuit (90 kcals, 6g protein, 2g net carbs, 6g fat) , 2 tbsp. fat-free I Can't Believe It's Not Butter (10 kcals, 2g net carbs), 2 oz. well-seasoned chicken breast (62 kcals, 13.2g protein, 0g carbs, 0.8g fat), 1/4 cup Egg Beaters (30 kcals, 6g protein, 1g carbs, 0g fat), Splenda. Total - (192 kcals, 25.2g protein, 5g net carbs, 6.8g fat). Y'all . . . this was simply and utterly divine. I try to only make one biscuit at a time, so this one was fresh from the oven with a juicy miniature piece of chicken breast and egg. I would always get the chicken, egg, and cheese biscuit from Chick-fil-A, but I didn't want cheese on this one. It was just so flavorful and delicious, completely WLS-friendly (I pan-cooked the chicken, no frying) and took about the same amount of time it would to walk across the street to Chik-fil-A. Plus, it's Sunday, and you know CFA is closed on Sundays. This was, in a word, awesome.
  • 1 Pure Protein cookies & cream RTD in Starbucks tall iced decaf americano (120 kcals, 23g protein, 3g net carbs, 1.5g fat)
  • Yummy light salad: 2 strips Jennie-O extra lean turkey bacon (40 kcals, 6g protein, 0g carbs, 1g fat), 1 oz. fat-free feta cheese (35 kcals, 7g protein, 1g carbs, 0g fat), 1 slice tomato (5 kcals, 1g carbs), and 20 grams avocado (40 kcals, 0.2g protein, 0.2g net carbs, 4g fat) over spinach (10 kcals, 0.5g protein, 0.5g net carbs, 0g fat) with preserved lemon-sweet mustard vinaigrette (5 kcals). Total - (135 kcals, 13.7g protein, 2.7g net carbs, 5g fat).
  • Chocolate protein shake: 1/2 cup cottage cheese (80 kcals, 15g protein, 5g carbs, 0g fat), 1/2 scoop About Time birthday cake protein (52 kcals, 12.5g protein, 0g carbs, 0g fat), 1 tbsp. chocolate SF/FF Jello pudding mix (15 kcals, 3g carbs), 1/2 tbsp. cocoa (5 kcals, 0.5g net carbs). Total - (152 kcals, 27.5g protein, 8.5g net carbs, 0g fat).
  • 4 Bariatric Advantage calcium lozenges (16 kcals, 4g net carbs)
  • 2 Celebrate orange multivitamins (10 kcals, 2g net carbs)
  • 2 Celebrate grape iron + c (10 kcals, 3g net carbs)
Total:
767 calories
116.9 g protein
61.0% kcals from protein
33.2g net carbs
17.3% kcals from net carbs
13.3g fat
15.6% kcals from fat.
I started the day by doing the entire Leslie Sansone 5 Day Slim Down walk aerobics DVD, which took 77 minutes. My legs were really tired between hot yoga on Friday night and a more-brisk-than-usual 5-mile walk on Saturday, but I got through it and felt pretty good afterward.

Sunday, May 16, 2010

What I Ate: May 13, 2010

Again, see the chocolate cake saga. This was the morning I ate so much white chocolate ganache that I mildly dumped (for non-WLS readers, "dumping" is not what you probably think it is. No need to be grossed out.)

I couldn't include totals for today. I don't remember what my last protein shake was :-( Plus, I have no idea what the nutritional info for the ganache and cake is. Let's just say a lot of calories, sugars, and fat, but virtually no protein. In other words, the direct opposite of what I'm supposed to be eating.
  • Several tablespoons white chocolate ganache
  • 3 bites regular, buttery, non-WLS-friendly chocolate cake
  • French vanilla shake: 1/2 cup cottage cheese (80 kcals, 15g protein, 5g carbs, 0g fat) and 1 tbsp. SF/FF cheesecake Jello pudding mix (15 kcals, 3g carbs) whizzed in the blender with SF French vanilla syrup, water, and ice. Total - (95 kcals, 15g protein, 8g carbs, 0g fat).
  • 1 2.6-oz. packet Starkist Chunk Light tuna (80 kcals, 18g protein, 0g net carbs, 0.5g fat).
  • 13 sugar-free chocolate meringue cookies (40 kcals, 5g protein, 6g net carbs, 0g fat) and 1 100-calorie pack natural almonds (100 kcals, 4g protein, 2g net carbs, 9g fat). Total - (140 kcals, 9g protein, 8g net carbs, 9g fat).
  • 1 Pure Protein vanilla cream shake in 3 decaf coffees (160 kcals, 35g protein, 2g net carbs, 1g fat)
  • Salad with spinach (10 kcals, 0.5g protein, 0.5g net carbs, 0g fat); 1 2-oz. Greek lamb mini-burger (56 kcals, 8g protein, 1.6g net carbs, 1g fat), 53 grams curry-roasted eggplant (30 kcals, 1g protein, 2.5g net carbs, 0.3g fat), 1 oz. FF feta (35 kcals, 7g protein, 1g carbs, 0g fat), and 1 slice tomato with preserved lemon vinaigrette (5 kcals). Total - (136 kcals, 16.5g protein, 5.6g net carbs, 1.3g fat).
  • Some kind of protein shake.
I worked out on Thursday, right after I got over my little dumping episode. I managed to get in 2 miles from the Leslie Sansone 5 Day Slim Down DVD. I am proud of myself for working out despite the white chocolate debacle. It's all about keeping the momentum going.

What I Ate: May 12, 2010

See the chocolate cake saga. This is what I ate before I gave in to the chocolate ganache and cocoa syrup.

Due to computer difficulties and general distraction, I haven't posted these for the past few days. But I'd already written everything down, so I'm posting them now.

  • Chocolate frosty: 1/2 cup cottage cheese (80 kcals, 15g protein, 5g carbs, 0g fat), 1 tbsp. Hershey's regular cocoa (10 kcals, 1g net carbs), and 1 tbsp. SF/FF chocolate Jello pudding mix (15 kcals, 3g carbs), Torani SF chocolate syrup, vanilla, water, ice. Total - (105 kcals, 15g protein, 8g carbs, 0g fat).
  • 3 slices Hormel Natural Choice rotisserie chicken (50 kcals, 11g protein, 0g carbs, 1g fat) and the almonds from a 100-calorie pack of natural walnuts and almonds (50 kcals, 2g protein, 1g net carbs, 4.5g fat). Total - (100 kcals, 13g protein, 1g net carbs, 5.5g fat)
  • Annoying office picnic: About 2 oz. chicken thigh meat (150 kcals, 17g protein, 0g carbs, 9g fat), about 60 grams green beans (20 kcals, 1g protein, 3g net carbs, 0g fat), and about 4 strawberries (24 kcals, 0.4g protein, 4g net carbs, 0g fat). Total - (194 kcals, 18.4g protein, 7g net carbs, 9g fat). This may be wasteful, but I'd planned to get this food for show and then toss it when I got back to the office. I'd already mapped my food plan for the day when I heard about the picnic, but I didn't want to shun my boss and coworker, so I went with them and pretended I was going to eat. Then we had some sort of bomb threat (!) and were stuck outside the office for almost 3 hours. I was starving, so I eventually ate this.
  • The walnuts from the 100-calorie pack of natural walnuts and almonds (50 kcals, 2g protein, 1g net carbs, 4.5g fat).
  • 1 Pure Protein frosty chocolate shake from Target in 4 decaf coffees (120 kcals, 23g protein, 3g net carbs, 1.5g fat).
  • Salad with spinach (10 kcals, 0.5g protein, 0.5g net carbs, 0g fat); 2 oz. (when raw) chicken breast (62 kcals, 13.2g protein, 0g carbs, 0.8g fat), 53 grams curry-roasted eggplant (30 kcals, 1g protein, 2.5g net carbs, 0.3g fat), 1 strip Jennie-O extra lean turkey bacon (20 kcals, 3g protein, 0g carbs, 0.5g fat), 1 oz. FF feta (35 kcals, 7g protein, 1g carbs, 0g fat), and 1 slice tomato with preserved lemon vinaigrette (5 kcals). Total - (162 kcals, 24.7g protein, 4g net carbs, 1.6g fat).
  • Strawberries and white chocolate protein shake: 1/2 cup fat-free cottage cheese (80 kcals, 15g protein, 5g carbs, 0g fat), 1/2 scoop Matrix strawberry cream protein powder (55 kcals, 11.5g protein, 1g carbs, 0.8g fat), 1 tbsp. SF/FF Jello cheesecake pudding mix (15 kcals, 3g carbs), SF white chocolae syrup, vanilla flavoring, lotsa ice. Total - (150 kcals, 26.5g protein, 9g carbs, 0.8g fat).
  • 4 Bariatric Advantage calcium lozenges (16 kcals, 4g net carbs)
  • 2 Celebrate orange multivitamins (10 kcals, 2g net carbs)
  • 2 Celebrate grape iron + c (10 kcals, 3g net carbs)
Total:
917 calories
122.6g protein
53.5% kcals from protein
40g net carbs
17.4% kcals from net carbs
22.9g fat
22.5% kcals from fat.
For exercise, I went 45 minutes on the elliptical and had a basic yoga class Wednesday evening for 75 minutes. There were a lot of complete beginners so it wasn't as good a workout as usual, but I learned a ton about proper body position. Basic is great for that, even if I'm not building up as much of a sweat as I'd prefer.

Thursday, May 13, 2010

The Chocolate Cake Saga

I posted what's below on ObesityHelp.com earlier today and got some good responses, but wanted to archive a slightly tweaked version of it here too. I've also posted it on the Bariatric Eating board. Hopefully others will learn from my mistakes!

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Warning: Very long and pathetic. Please, no one be as crazy as me.

Today is one of my coworker's birthdays, and given that we are a small office, we always do a little celebration. On Monday, we discussed what we were going to do. Because I'm CRAZY, I volunteered to bake a chocolate cake because my coworker loves chocolate. Also, I am not very good at my job, and I want my coworkers and boss to appreciate something about me. They have enjoyed my cooking in the past. So, this seemed like an opportunity to buy affection with food.

They Gave Me an Out.
Baking can be time-consuming and expensive (not to mention dangerous for serious compulsive eaters, such as yours truly.) In light of this, one of my coworkers checked with me on Tuesday to make sure it wasn't too much trouble to bake the cake. She said she could just buy crepes and we could have strawberries and whipped cream. On some level, this would be good because it wouldn't put my food abstinence at risk. She gave me an out that I should have taken - or I could have at least made chocolate ganache for the crepes, which would have been somewhat safer.

However, (1) the coworker with the birthday REALLY likes chocolate cake, and it's her birthday so I felt she should have a nice cake and not just crepes; and (2) I wouldn't have been contributing as much to the group if I didn't bake the cake. So I asked, "Which one would she prefer? Cake or crepes?" She knew the answer; I knew the answer, and so I left work early to try to get to the grocery store for cake supplies before WLS support group. (This is how crazy I am! Gotta go buy fats and sugary carbs before support group!!)

Day 1: Baking the Cake
I baked the cake on Tuesday night (after WLS support group, and after watching The Biggest Loser. WTF?) This was my first time baking something "regular" since surgery - I usually make WLS-friendly versions of desserts. For example, I enjoy making the black bean-based chocolate cake from Linda at Eating Well, Living Thin.

This traditional carby cake turned out beautifully! It was a buttery, moist, very deep chocolate bundt. Unfortunately, it rose a little too high out of my pan, so I needed to slice off some of the bottom to make it level.

You know what happened. I ate the trimmings. That's how I know how buttery, moist, and full-flavored the cake was. I justified this by saying, "Oh, I need to take a bite to make sure it's good enough to serve." But I didn't need to eat ALL that! I did my penance. Unfortunately, because I ate that cake, I wasn't able to finish the protein shake I'd made for that night. My pouch was just too full. FAIL.

Day 2: Glazing the Cake
I decided to lightly coat the bundt cake with semi-sweet chocolate and white chocolate ganaches. I really just wanted to make ganache. So last night - after yoga - I made my ganaches with regular sugary chocolate. I was hopeful they wouldn't tempt me as much as the cake did. I mean, frosting by itself isn't that great, and I didn't think the ganache would be either. But of course I "needed" to taste it to get the flavor perfect, right???

So I did. You know how this ended.

I ate ganache, more than I needed to get the flavor right. I even ate some of the chocolate that I used to make the ganache. I don't remember how my food addict mind justified this, but I know it did. When my little eating episode was over, I tossed the rest of the chocolate pieces. But I kept the leftover ganache because I wasn't pleased with how it sat on the cake, and I wanted to try some other methods with it in the morning.

I didn't even try to have my last shake last night. The thought of eating something else after all that ganache was just too nauseating. FAIL.

Day 3: Serving the Cake - and Coworker Disappointment?
This morning, I woke up at 6 AM to have my protein shake in advance of my morning workout. Before I made the protein shake, I decided to check on the ganache to see if getting it really cold changed it to become the consistency I was looking for.

BIG MISTAKE.

The consistency was right, but as a compulsive eater of course my next move was to "taste" it. Yes, I'd already tasted it last night, but I wanted to make sure it tasted right cold (you know, because that's really important ::sarcasm::.)

I ate several teaspoons of white chocolate ganache. I ate so many that even though I don't usually dump, I did this time! I had severe nausea, my heart was racing, and I was incapacitated for 30-45 minutes. This almost jeopardized my workout, but fortunately I pulled something together after the half-hour of horror passed.

It was oddly comforting to know that I have some kind of limit, even though it must be extremely high since I didn't get sick during the earlier phases of this chocolate cake nightmare.

So anyway, I tossed the rest of the ganache, exercised, dressed for work, and brought the cake with me. Finally, the cake was out of my addict hands!

We had the office party early because today's really busy. The first thing the birthday girl asked me: "Hey, is this the black bean cake? My family LOVES that!"

I thought: "Umm.... what?!?! You mean I deliberately baked a sugary, buttery cake, trying not to impose my nutritional constraints on others, and you're telling me you want a WLS-friendly cake?! You mean I've screwed up my calorie counts for almost the entire week and you wanted something healthy?!"

But I responded: "Oh, I'm sorry! I thought you'd want a real cake for your birthday. If I'd known, I would have made it!" I felt like a complete IDIOT.

The four of us (two coworkers and our boss) sat at a tiny table to share the cake. I didn't want any cake. I was SO DONE with that cake. But, being CRAZY and weak, I took the slice I was given and ate a few bites. I threw most of it away. I'm proud that I only ate a few bites, at least, but still . . . dang. Just two hours earlier, I'd dumped on this selfsame cake!

Fortunately, my coworkers loved the cake. Even the boss, who is not a huge chocolate fan, was all about this cake. Mission accomplished, on some level - but I still suck at my job, I dumped, and now my weight's up. EPIC FAIL.

What Have I Learned?
I knew I had "head issues," but this episode brought up some new ones.

(1) I now realize that I've been using food as a way to seek approval from others. I may not be all that entertaining or interesting, but I'm a damn good cook, so I've always been the one to bake friends' birthday cakes or offer to host and cook for a dinner party. I would put a lot of pressure on myself to try to make the BEST dish for potlucks with friends, even if that meant spending tons of money I don't have on ingredients. I was willing to do whatever it took to get the compliments. I'd be upset if a dish wasn't fawned over, even if everyone else was having a good time. I need to understand that I have more to offer my friends and coworkers than cooking skills. I also need to stop relying on others to validate me in this way. This is a huge realization, actually - I wasn't aware of this issue a week ago.

(2) I knew, at least in the back of my mind, that I wasn't strong enough to bake a cake without tasting some of it. I knew that even when I volunteered to bake it. And I definitely knew I wouldn't be able to taste the cake by just taking a bite or 2. One or two bites inevitably becomes four or five with me. So why did I decide to bake the cake knowing what would happen?

(3) Relatedly, I wanted to test my RNY, for some reason. Other than Calcet vitamins, this was my first real sugary treat since surgery over a year ago. I think one of the reasons I baked the cake, knowing I'd eat some, was to see how much indulgence it would take to make me sick. Unfortunately, it took a lot of powerful sugariness on an empty stomach to produce something akin to dumping syndrome, even though the cake/ganache did some less severe digestive damage the night before.

There are probably more lessons I could take from this, but those jump out at me.

Obviously, I need to get my head back in the game. One bad decision leads to another bad decision, which leads to another bad decision, and next thing you know, you're 300 pounds again.

The good news is, I'm not craving chocolate cake or other sugar/carbs. I'm not feeling a general urge to stray from my food plan, and I wouldn't have wanted cake if it hadn't been in my house. I'm less worried about the food stuff than the head stuff. What can I do to stop being crazy and volunteering to bake full sugar cakes to get people to like me? Why didn't I respond, "We should get her a chocolate cake. I'll buy one!"

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

What I Ate: May 11, 2010 (Chocolate Cake Edition)

Yes, you read that correctly: The chocolate cake edition. And I don't mean the black bean/maltitol chocolate cake either. Details below.
  • Strawberries and white chocolate protein shake: 1/2 cup fat-free cottage cheese (80 kcals, 15g protein, 5g carbs, 0g fat), 1/2 scoop Matrix strawberry cream protein powder (55 kcals, 11.5g protein, 1g carbs, 0.8g fat), 1 tbsp. SF/FF Jello cheesecake pudding mix (15 kcals, 3g carbs), SF white chocolate syrup, vanilla flavoring, lotsa ice. Total - (150 kcals, 26.5g protein, 9g carbs, 0.8g fat).
  • Tuna and almonds: 1 2.6-oz. packet Starkist Chunk Light tuna (80 kcals, 18g protein, 0g net carbs, 0.5g fat) and 1 100-calorie pack natural almonds (100 kcals, 4g protein, 2g net carbs, 9g fat). Total - (180 kcals, 22g protein, 2g net carbs, 9.5g fat).
  • 2 2-oz. Greek lamb mini-burgers (112 kcals, 16g protein, 3.2g net carbs, 2g fat) and 1 oz. fat-free Feta (35 kcals, 7g protein, 1g carbs, 0g fat) over about 60 grams leftover green beans (20 kcals, 1g protein, 3g net carbs, 0g fat). Total - (167 kcals, 24g protein, 7.2g net carbs, 2g fat).
  • 1/2 vanilla creme Oh Yeah! in decaf coffee (110 kcals, 16g protein, 1.5g net carbs, 4.5g fat)
  • Salad with spinach (10 kcals, 0.5g protein, 0.5g net carbs, 0g fat); 2 oz. (when raw) chicken breast (62 kcals, 13.2g protein, 0g carbs, 0.8g fat), 53 grams curry-roasted eggplant (30 kcals, 1g protein, 2.5g net carbs, 0.3g fat), 1 strip Jennie-O extra lean turkey bacon (20 kcals, 3g protein, 0g carbs, 0.5g fat), 1 oz. FF feta (35 kcals, 7g protein, 1g carbs, 0g fat), and 1 slice tomato with preserved lemon vinaigrette (5 kcals). Total - (162 kcals, 24.7g protein, 4g net carbs, 1.6g fat).
  • Cookies & cream protein frosty: 1/2 cup cottage cheese (80 kcals, 15g protein, 5g carbs, 0g fat) and 1 tbsp. SF/FF cheesecake Jello pudding mix (15 kcals, 3g carbs), 1/2 scoop Matrix Cookies & Cream protein powder (65 kcals, 11.5g protein, 2g carbs, 1g fat), ice, water, SF cookie dough syrup. Total - (160 kcals, 26.5g protein, 10g carbs, 1g fat).
  • 3 Bariatric Advantage calcium lozenges (12 kcals, 3g net carbs)
  • 2 Celebrate orange multivitamins (10 kcals, 2g net carbs)
  • 2 Celebrate grape iron + c (10 kcals, 3g net carbs)
Theoretical Total, Before Chocolate Cake:
961 calories
123.7g protein
51.5% kcals from protein
41.7g net carbs
17.4% kcals from net carbs
19.4g fat
18.2% kcals from fat.

The deal with the chocolate cake: I foolishly offered to bake a cake for a coworker's birthday. I don't know what I was thinking. I guess I just wanted to do something nice that I used to do before surgery. I baked for many friends' birthdays, and I miss doing that. Also, I am not very good at my job, and I want my coworkers and boss to appreciate something about me. They have enjoyed my cooking in the past. So, this seemed like an opportunity to buy affection with food.

Unfortunately, I don't have the self-control to bake for others. I'm a food addict. The cake was too big for my bundt pan and rose too high, so I had to level the cake by slicing off some of the bottom. As you might predict, I ate almost all of the cake I sliced off. (I don't dump. This was regular carby cake made with real sugar and real butter.) I reasoned that, because I was serving it to my boss and coworkers, I "needed" to taste it. While that is true on some level, I didn't need to have more than a bite - but I did.

The cake added a lot to my caloric intake for the day, but I'm not super-worried about that. I know I'm not going to start eating chocolate cake every day. There wasn't a specific food that made me morbidly obese - I was more of a volume consumer of everything edible. I'll just return to my normal routine.

That said, I had no business eating that cake. More importantly, I had no business volunteering to bake that cake. That's what I'm worried about. We could have bought a cake, but I put myself in harm's way to please others, knowing in the back of my mind that I'd find some way to justify nibbling on the cake and/or licking the batter-coated spatula and beaters.

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

What I Ate: May 10, 2010

  • Egg & cheese biscuit: Carbquik biscuit that I mixed using 1 tbsp. I Can't Believe It's Not Butter (95 kcals, 6g protein, 2g net carbs, 6g fat) with 1/4 cup Egg Beaters (30 kcals, 6g protein, 1g carbs, 0g fat) and 1 slice FF cheese (25 kcals, 4g protein, 2g carbs, 0g fat). Total - (150 kcals, 16g protein, 5g net carbs, 6g fat). I used to get these from Hardee's and McD's, and thanks to Carbquik, now I can have them post-WLS with absolutely no guilt. Yay!
  • About 1/2 vanilla creme Oh Yeah! in several decaf coffees (110 kcals, 16g protein, 1.5g carbs, 4.5g fat)
  • 1 2-oz. Greek lamb mini-burger (56 kcals, 8g protein, 1.6g net carbs, 1g fat) over 75 grams sweet quick-pickled green beans (25 kcals, 1.3g protein, 3.4g net carbs, 0.2g fat) with 1 oz. fat-free Feta (35 kcals, 7g protein, 1g carbs, 0g fat) mixed in. Total - (116 kcals, 16.3g protein, 6g net carbs, 1.2g fat).
  • Butterscotch/butter rum frosty (Am I going overboard much)?: 1/2 cup cottage cheese (80 kcals, 15g protein, 5g carbs, 0g fat) and 1 tbsp. SF/FF butterscotch Jello pudding mix (15 kcals, 3g carbs) whizzed in the blender with SF butter rum syrup, Splenda, water, and ice. Total - (95 kcals, 15g protein, 8g carbs, 0g fat).
  • Ditto - another butterscotch frosty, except this time with caramel and cinnamon flavors. 1/2 cup cottage cheese (80 kcals, 15g protein, 5g carbs, 0g fat) and 1 tbsp. SF/FF butterscotch Jello pudding mix (15 kcals, 3g carbs) whizzed in the blender with SF dulce de leche syrup, cinnamon, water, and ice. Total - (95 kcals, 15g protein, 8g carbs, 0g fat).
  • Mostly veggie omelet: 1/2 cup egg substitute (60 kcals, 12g protein, 2g carbs, 0g fat), 1 slice FF Swiss (25 kcals, 4g protein, 2g carbs, 0g fat), 1 strip Jennie-O extra lean turkey bacon (20 kcals, 3g protein, 0g carbs, 0.5g fat), spinach (5 kcals), about 20 grams onions (10 kcals, 1g net carbs), the last of my rehydrated porcini mushrooms (10 kcals, 1g net carbs), bell pepper (7 kcals, 0.5g net carbs), celery (3 kcals), tomato (3 kcals). Total - (143 kcals, 19g protein, 6.5g net carbs, 0.5g fat).
  • Cookies & cream protein frosty: 1/2 cup cottage cheese (80 kcals, 15g protein, 5g carbs, 0g fat) and 1 tbsp. SF/FF cheesecake Jello pudding mix (15 kcals, 3g carbs), 1/2 scoop Matrix Cookies & Cream protein powder (65 kcals, 11.5g protein, 2g carbs, 1g fat), ice, water, SF cookie dough syrup. Total - (160 kcals, 26.5g protein, 10g carbs, 1g fat).
  • 2 slices Hormel Natural Choice chicken breast (34 kcals, 7.3g protein, 0g carbs, 0g fat) and 1 slice Kraft FF American cheese (25 kcals, 4g protein, 2g carbs, 0g fat)
  • 1 Bariatric Advantage calcium lozenge (4 kcals, 1g net carbs)
  • 2 Celebrate orange multivitamins (10 kcals, 2g net carbs)
  • 2 Celebrate grape iron + c (10 kcals, 3g net carbs)
  • 2 Bariatric Advantage raspberry calcium chews (30 kcals, 5g net carbs)
Total:
982 calories
135.1g protein
55.0% kcals from protein
58g net carbs (a touch high)
23.6% kcals from net carbs
10.2g fat (wow, no nuts tanks my fat #s)
9.3% kcals from fat.
I didn't exercise on Monday because I'm lame (mentally, not physically.)

Monday, May 10, 2010

What I Ate: May 8-9, 2010

As I mentioned in an earlier post, my experiment with foregoing the food log on travel weekends failed miserably. I was out of town this weekend visiting the family. I can only approximate totals for Saturday, but I still logged my food on Sunday. Here goes:

Saturday, May 8, 2010:

  • Strawberry protein frosty: 1/2 cup fat-free cottage cheese (80 kcals, 15g protein, 5g carbs, 0g fat), 1/2 scoop Matrix strawberry cream protein powder (55 kcals, 11.5g protein, 1g carbs, 0.8g fat), 1 tbsp. SF/FF Jello white chocolate pudding mix (15 kcals, 3g carbs), SF vanilla syrup, vanilla flavoring, lotsa ice. Total - (150 kcals, 26.5g protein, 9g carbs, 0.8g fat).
  • 1 100-calorie pack natural almonds (100 kcals, 4g protein, 2g net carbs, 9g fat).
  • 1 2-oz. Greek lamb mini-burger (56 kcals, 8g protein, 1.6g net carbs, 1g fat) over 75 grams sweet quick-pickled green beans (25 kcals, 1.3g protein, 3.4g net carbs, 0.2g fat) with 1 oz. fat-free Feta (35 kcals, 7g protein, 1g carbs, 0g fat) mixed in. Total - (116 kcals, 16.3g protein, 6g net carbs, 1.2g fat).
  • 1 Pure Protein frosty chocolate shake from Target (120 kcals, 23g protein, 3g net carbs, 1.5g fat)
  • 3 grapes (6 kcals, 1.2g carbs)
  • 2 clusters snow crab legs (approx. 190 kcals, 40g protein, 0g carbs, 2g fat) and a little iceberg salad with fake honey mustard-dill dressing (approx. 5 kcals, 2g net carbs) from Harbor Inn
  • 1 tbsp. peanut butter (95 kcals, 4g protein, 2.5g net carbs, 8g fat), 10 pecan halves (100 kcals, 1.2g protein, 0.6g net carbs, 10.2g fat), and a few raisins, maybe 2 tbsp? (60 kcals, 20g carbs) - this actually made me sick, so . . .
  • 1 simple chocolate-cottage cheese shake: 1/2 cup fat-free cottage cheese - Bi-lo brand (90 kcals, 14g protein, 7g carbs, 0g fat), 1 tbsp. SF/FF chocolate Jello pudding mix (15 kcals, 3g carbs), 1 tbsp. Hershey's Special Dark cocoa (15 kcals, 1g net carbs), ice, SF syrups. Total - (120 kcals, 14g protein, 11g net carbs, 0g fat).
Very approximate totals:
1,062 calories
129g protein
48.6% kcals from protein
56.1g net carbs
21.1% kcals from net carbs
32.7g fat
27.7% kcals from fat.

Sunday, May 9, 2010
  • 1/2 cup fat-free cottage cheese - Bi-lo brand (90 kcals, 14g protein, 7g carbs, 0g fat), 1 tbsp. SF/FF chocolate Jello pudding mix (15 kcals, 3g carbs), ice, SF syrups. Total - (105 kcals, 14g protein, 10g net carbs, 0g fat).
  • Egg & cheese biscuit: Carbquik biscuit that I mixed using 1 tbsp. I Can't Believe It's Not Butter (95 kcals, 6g protein, 2g net carbs, 6g fat) with 1/4 cup Egg Beaters (30 kcals, 6g protein, 1g carbs, 0g fat) and 1 slice FF cheese (25 kcals, 4g protein, 2g carbs, 0g fat). Total - (150 kcals, 16g protein, 5g net carbs, 6g fat).
  • Ryan's! (aka the only buffet I love.) I did the exact opposite of what you're supposed to do after WLS: I ate dessert first, then salad, then saved my meats for last and could barely take a bite of them. I ate more of the meat later on in the day. But here's what I picked up: (1) A few Oreo crumbles (no creme, just the cookie part); (2) Spinach leaves topped with hard-boiled egg, raisins, bean salad, cheese, and this amazing broccoli/bacon/cheese/mayo salad; (3) Main course veggies - carrots and pinto beans; (4) An array of meats - Chicken breast, pot roast, and salmon. On the first go-round, I ate the Oreos, most of the salad, and like 2 bites of the meats.
  • 1/2 of my mom's sandwich thins (50 kcals, 2.5g protein, 7.5g net carbs, 0.5g fat) with about 1.5 tbsp. peanut butter (143 kcals, 9g protein, 4g net carbs, 12g fat)) and SF chocolate syrup
  • 1/2 cup fat-free cottage cheese - Bi-lo brand (90 kcals, 14g protein, 7g carbs, 0g fat), 1 tbsp. SF/FF chocolate Jello pudding mix (15 kcals, 3g carbs), ice, SF syrups. Total - (105 kcals, 14g protein, 10g net carbs, 0g fat).
  • Handful of pecan halves and raisins; Ryan's leftovers, this time concentrating on the proteins, pinto beans, and 1-2 cooked baby carrots. This was emotional eating after an uncomfortable conversation with an old friend, so I'm not happy about this.
  • Mocha chocolate shake: 1/2 cup fat-free cottage cheese - Bi-lo brand (90 kcals, 14g protein, 7g carbs, 0g fat), 1/2 scoop Nectar cappuccino protein (45 kcals, 11.5g protein, 0g carbs, 0g fat), 1 tbsp. SF/FF chocolate Jello pudding mix (15 kcals, 3g carbs), ice, SF syrups. Total - (150 kcals, 25.5g protein, 10g net carbs, 0g fat).
I consumed a lot of calories on Sunday, but I'm not so bothered by it because I felt in control of the situation. Even when I comfort-ate after the phone call, I debated whether to eat for about 5 minutes and selected the item that made the most nutritional sense to me. I operated with intention and made a mindful choice. I'm not saying it was a good choice, but it was a controlled one. During most of my compulsive eating episodes, it's as if food hops into my mouth before I can stop it.

So all in all, I'm happy with this. I splurged, but within reason, and most importantly, I didn't binge. That's a small but real victory for me.

Oh, I almost forgot about exercise: Saturday I went hiking at Table Rock State Park (more on that later), and Sunday I did a 3-mile walk at a local track/park thing.

Friday, May 7, 2010

What I Ate: May 7, 2010

As I'd predicted, there was an uptick (1.1 pounds) in my weight this morning that was probably traceable to the late-night black beans. Fortunately, I was still below 180, at 178.8.

  • 1/2 cup cottage cheese (80 kcals, 15g protein, 5g carbs, 0g fat) and 1 tbsp. SF/FF cheesecake Jello pudding mix (15 kcals, 3g carbs) whizzed in the blender with SF white chocolate syrup, water, and ice. Total - (95 kcals, 15g protein, 8g carbs, 0g fat).
  • Protein coffees: 1 Pure Protein vanilla cream shake in 3 decaf coffees (160 kcals, 35g protein, 2g net carbs, 1g fat)
  • 1 2-oz. Greek lamb mini-burger (56 kcals, 8g protein, 1.6g net carbs, 1g fat) over 75 grams sweet quick-pickled green beans (25 kcals, 1.3g protein, 3.4g net carbs, 0.2g fat) with 1 oz. fat-free Feta (35 kcals, 7g protein, 1g carbs, 0g fat) mixed in. Total - (116 kcals, 16.3g protein, 6g net carbs, 1.2g fat). This was great!
  • Tuna and almonds: 1 2.6-oz. packet Starkist Chunk Light tuna (80 kcals, 18g protein, 0g net carbs, 0.5g fat) and 1 100-calorie pack natural almonds (100 kcals, 4g protein, 2g net carbs, 9g fat). Total - (180 kcals, 22g protein, 2g net carbs, 9.5g fat).
  • Another refrigerator omelet (getting rid of leftovers): 1/4 cup egg substitute (30 kcals, 6g protein, 1g carbs, 0g fat), 20 grams avocado (40 kcals, 0.2g protein, 0.2g net carbs, 4g fat), 35 grams leftover collards (10 kcals, 0.6g protein, 0.6g net carbs, 0g fat), 2 strips Jennie-O extra lean turkey bacon (40 kcals, 6g protein, 0g carbs, 1g fat), 1 tbsp. FF I Can't Believe It's Not Butter (5 kcals, 1g net carbs), 1/2 tbsp. minced garlic (5 kcals), 20 grams onion (10 kcals, 1g net carbs). Total - (140 kcals, 12.8g protein, 3.8g net carbs, 5g fat).
  • Cookie dough ice cream protein frosty: 1/2 cup cottage cheese (80 kcals, 15g protein, 5g carbs, 0g fat) and 2 tbsp. SF/FF cheesecake Jello pudding mix (30 kcals, 6g carbs), 1/2 scoop Inspire ice cream sandwich protein powder (63 kcals, 15g protein, 1g net carbs, 0g fat), ice, water, SF cookie dough syrup. Total - (173 kcals, 30g protein, 12g carbs, 0g fat).
  • 1 Bariatric Advantage calcium lozenge (4 kcals, 1g net carbs)
  • 2 Celebrate orange multivitamins (10 kcals, 2g net carbs)
  • 2 Celebrate grape iron + c (10 kcals, 3g net carbs)
  • 2 Bariatric Advantage raspberry calcium chews (30 kcals, 5g net carbs)
Total:
918 calories
131.1g protein
57.1% kcals from protein
44.8g net carbs
19.5% kcals from net carbs
16.7g fat
16.4% kcals from fat.

Exercise today was 1 hour on the elliptical in the morning and a 75-minute Hot Yoga class in the evening.

Thursday, May 6, 2010

What I Ate: May 6, 2010

  • Mexican chocolate frosty - with more ice this time: 1/2 cup cottage cheese (80 kcals, 15g protein, 5g carbs, 0g fat), 1 tbsp. Hershey's Special Dark cocoa (15 kcals, 1g net carbs), and 1 tbsp. SF/FF chocolate Jello pudding mix (15 kcals, 3g carbs), a pinch of cinnamon and allspice, Torani SF chocolate syrup, water, ice. Total - (110 kcals, 15g protein, 8g carbs, 0g fat).
  • Lamb slider on garlic biscuit with feta: 1/2 serving Carbquik biscuit (45 kcals, 3g protein, 1g net carbs, 3g fat) with 1 2-oz. Greek lamb mini-burger (56 kcals, 8g protein, 1.6g net carbs, 1g fat) and 1 oz. fat-free Feta (35 kcals, 7g protein, 1g carbs, 0g fat). Total - (136 kcals, 18g protein, 3.6g net carbs, 4g fat).
  • Protein coffees: 1 Pure Protein frosty chocolate shake in 3 decaf coffees (170 kcals, 35g protein, 3g net carbs, 1g fat)
  • Tuna and almonds: 1 2.6-oz. packet Starkist Chunk Light tuna (80 kcals, 18g protein, 0g net carbs, 0.5g fat) and 1 100-calorie pack natural almonds (100 kcals, 4g protein, 2g net carbs, 9g fat). Total - (180 kcals, 22g protein, 2g net carbs, 9.5g fat).
  • Refrigerator green vegetable omelet (getting rid of leftovers): 1/2 cup egg substitute (60 kcals, 12g protein, 2g carbs, 0g fat), 1 slice FF Swiss (25 kcals, 4g protein, 2g carbs, 0g fat), 1 strip Jennie-O extra lean turkey bacon (20 kcals, 3g protein, 0g carbs, 0.5g fat), 35 grams leftover collards (10 kcals, 0.7g protein, 0.7g net carbs, 0g fat); 20 grams leftover spinach (5 kcals), 40 grams leftover broccoli (14 kcals, 1g protein, 1.6g net carbs, 0g fat), 20 grams onion (10 kcals, 1g net carbs). Total - (144 kcals, 20.7g protein, 7.3g net carbs, 0.5g fat).
  • Cinnamon roll protein frosty: 1/2 cup cottage cheese (80 kcals, 15g protein, 5g carbs, 0g fat), 1/2 scoop About Time birthday cake protein (52 kcals, 12.5g protein, 0g carbs, 0g fat), 2 tbsp. FF/SF cheesecake pudding mix (30 kcals, 6g carbs), 2 pinches cinnamon, SF vanilla syrup. Total - (162 kcals, 27.5g protein, 11g carbs, 0g fat).
  • 1 can of black beans, roasted (385 kcals, 21g protein, 49g net carbs, 0g fat)
  • 4 Bariatric Advantage calcium lozenges (16 kcals, 4g net carbs)
  • 2 Celebrate orange multivitamins (10 kcals, 2g net carbs)
  • 2 Celebrate grape iron + c (10 kcals, 3g net carbs)
Total:
1,323 calories
159.2g protein
48.1% kcals from protein
92.9g net carbs
28.1% kcals from net carbs
15g fat
10.2% kcals from fat.

I did 40 minutes on the elliptical in the morning. That's it, so I fell short on exercise for the day. I bet, between the roasted beans and the lackluster exercise, the scale's gonna be back over 180 in the morning. It was at 177.7 this morning. :-/ Also, there went my 2 days of OA abstinence.

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

What I Ate: May 5, 2010

Happy Cinco de Mayo!
  • Strawberry protein frosty: 1/2 cup fat-free cottage cheese (80 kcals, 15g protein, 5g carbs, 0g fat), 1/2 scoop Matrix strawberry cream protein powder (55 kcals, 11.5g protein, 1g carbs, 0.8g fat), 1 tbsp. SF/FF Jello white chocolate pudding mix (15 kcals, 3g carbs), SF vanilla syrup, vanilla flavoring, lotsa ice. Total - (150 kcals, 26.5g protein, 9g carbs, 0.8g fat).
  • Lamb slider on garlic biscuit with feta: 1/2 serving Carbquik biscuit (45 kcals, 3g protein, 1g net carbs, 3g fat) with 1 2-oz. Greek lamb mini-burger (56 kcals, 8g protein, 1.6g net carbs, 1g fat) and 1 oz. fat-free Feta (35 kcals, 7g protein, 1g carbs, 0g fat). Total - (136 kcals, 18g protein, 3.6g net carbs, 4g fat).
  • Protein coffees: 1 Pure Protein frosty chocolate shake in 3 decaf coffees (170 kcals, 35g protein, 3g net carbs, 1g fat)
  • Tuna and almonds: 1 2.6-oz. packet Starkist Chunk Light tuna (80 kcals, 18g protein, 0g net carbs, 0.5g fat) and 1 100-calorie pack natural almonds (100 kcals, 4g protein, 2g net carbs, 9g fat). Total - (180 kcals, 22g protein, 2g net carbs, 9.5g fat).
  • Cinco de Mayo celebration dinner! Chicken omelet topped with guacamole: 1/4 cup egg substitute (30 kcals, 6g protein, 1g carbs, 0g fat), 3 slices Hormel Natural Choice rotisserie chicken (50 kcals, 11g protein, 0g carbs, 1g fat), 40 grams avocado (80 kcals, 0.4g protein, 0.4g net carbs, 8g fat), 1 slice tomato (5 kcals, 1g carbs), and a little preserved lemon juice and zest and Liquid Smoke. Total - (165 kcals, 17.4g protein, 2.4g net carbs, 9g fat).
  • Cinco de Mayo celebration late-night snack! Mexican chocolate frosty: 1/2 cup cottage cheese (80 kcals, 15g protein, 5g carbs, 0g fat), 1 tbsp. Hershey's Special Dark cocoa (15 kcals, 1g net carbs), and 1 tbsp. SF/FF chocolate Jello pudding mix (15 kcals, 3g carbs), a pinch of cinnamon and allspice, Torani SF chocolate syrup, water, ice. Total - (110 kcals, 15g protein, 8g carbs, 0g fat). This was scrumptious, but I forgot to make enough ice so it turned out to be more of a thick shake than a frosty. I'm going to give it another try tomorrow morning because the base was so delicious.
  • 4 Bariatric Advantage calcium lozenges (16 kcals, 4g net carbs)
  • 2 Celebrate orange multivitamins (10 kcals, 2g net carbs)
  • 2 Celebrate grape iron + c (10 kcals, 3g net carbs)
Total:
947 calories
133.9g protein
56.6% kcals from protein
37g net carbs
15.6% kcals from net carbs
24.3g fat
23.1% kcals from fat.
Exercise today was (1) 35 minutes on the elliptical in the morning; (2) Basic yoga at City Yoga SC. The theme of yoga tonight was "Back to Basics," which meant it wasn't as vigorous in flow as I prefer for exercise purposes, but I did at least learn some important information about alignment.

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

What I Ate: May 4, 2010

  • Vanilla peanut butter cookie shake: 1 oz. fat-free cream cheese (30 kcals, 4g protein, 3g carbs, 0g fat) and 1/4 cup So Delicious coconut milk "beverage" (13 kcals, 0.2g protein, 0.2g carbs, 1.3g fat) with 1/2 scoop Inspire peanut butter cookie protein powder (66 kcals, 12.5g protein, 0.5g carbs, 0.5g fat), ice, vanilla extract, and sweeteners. Total - (109 kcals, 16.7g protein, 3.7g net carbs, 1.8g fat). This was pouchworthy - I didn't toss it - but I didn't love it. I bet a good peanut butter shake will require more of a caloric investment.

  • Lamb slider on garlic biscuit with feta: 1/2 serving Carbquik biscuit (45 kcals, 3g protein, 1g net carbs, 3g fat) with 1 2-oz. Greek lamb mini-burger (56 kcals, 8g protein, 1.6g net carbs, 1g fat) and 1 oz. fat-free Feta (35 kcals, 7g protein, 1g carbs, 0g fat). Total - (136 kcals, 18g protein, 3.6g net carbs, 4g fat).

  • Protein coffees: 2/3 vanilla creme brulee Believe in 2 decaf coffees (80 kcals, 13g protein, 2g carbs, 0g fat).

  • Tuna and almonds: 1 2.6-oz. packet Starkist Chunk Light tuna (80 kcals, 18g protein, 0g net carbs, 0.5g fat) and 1 100-calorie pack natural almonds (100 kcals, 4g protein, 2g net carbs, 9g fat). Total - (180 kcals, 22g protein, 2g net carbs, 9.5g fat).

  • Chicken, broccoli, and mushroom omelet: 1/4 cup egg substitute (30 kcals, 6g protein, 1g carbs, 0g fat), 3 slices Hormel Natural Choice rotisserie chicken (50 kcals, 11g protein, 0g carbs, 1g fat), 1 slice Kraft FF Swiss (25 kcals, 4g protein, 2g carbs, 0g fat), 60 grams steamed broccoli (20 kcals, 1.5g protein, 1.5g net carbs, 0g fat), 20 grams diced yellow onion (10 kcals, 1.5g net carbs), a few pieces rehydrated dried porcinis (about 10 kcals, 0.7g protein, 1g net carbs, 0g fat). Total - (145 kcals, 23.2g protein, 7g net carbs, 1g fat). DELICIOUS! Only problem is there was too much filling for the egg, but the flavor was bangin' so I didn't worry about it.

  • Cookie dough ice cream protein frosty: 1/2 cup cottage cheese (80 kcals, 15g protein, 5g carbs, 0g fat) and 2 tbsp. SF/FF white chocolate Jello pudding mix (30 kcals, 6g carbs), 1/2 scoop Inspire ice cream sandwich protein powder (63 kcals, 15g protein, 1g net carbs, 0g fat), ice, water, SF cookie dough syrup. Total - (173 kcals, 30g protein, 12g carbs, 0g fat).

  • 3 Bariatric Advantage calcium lozenges (12 kcals, 3g net carbs)

  • 2 Celebrate orange multivitamins (10 kcals, 2g net carbs)

  • 2 Celebrate grape iron + c (10 kcals, 3g net carbs)

  • 2 Bariatric Advantage raspberry calcium chews (30 kcals, 5g net carbs)
Total:
885 calories
122.9g protein
55.5% kcals from protein
44.3g net carbs
20.0% kcals from net carbs
16.3g fat
16.6% kcals from fat.

Today's exercise was 45 minutes on the elliptical in the morning before work. Yay! I dragged myself out of bed, finally! It made a big positive difference in how I felt for the rest of the day - well, at least until the annoyance of legal work kicked in.

Monday, May 3, 2010

What I Ate: May 3, 2010

  • Chocolate-cottage cheese concoction deliciousness: 1/2 cup fat-free cottage cheese (80 kcals, 15g protein, 5g carbs, 0g fat), 1 tbsp. SF/FF Jello cheesecake pudding mix (15 kcals, 3g carbs), 1 tbsp. Hershey's cocoa (10 kcals, 1g net carbs), SF syrups, a little water, and lotsa ice, whizzed in blender. This one was easier to eat because I didn't let it aerate quite so much. Total - (105 kcals, 15g protein, 9g carbs, 0g fat).
  • Lamb slider on garlic biscuit with feta: 1/2 serving Carbquik biscuit (45 kcals, 3g protein, 1g net carbs, 3g fat) with 1 2-oz. Greek lamb mini-burger (56 kcals, 8g protein, 1.6g net carbs, 1g fat) and 1 oz. fat-free Feta (35 kcals, 7g protein, 1g carbs, 0g fat). Total - (136 kcals, 18g protein, 3.6g net carbs, 4g fat).
  • Protein coffees: 1 vanilla creme brulee Believe (not my favorite flavor, but it's all I have left) in 3 decaf coffees (120 kcals, 20g protein, 5g carbs, 0g fat).
  • Tuna and almonds: 1 2.6-oz. packet Starkist Chunk Light tuna (80 kcals, 18g protein, 0g net carbs, 0.5g fat) and 1 100-calorie pack natural almonds (100 kcals, 4g protein, 2g net carbs, 9g fat). Total - (180 kcals, 22g protein, 2g net carbs, 9.5g fat).
  • Another tasty omelet: 1/4 cup egg substitute (30 kcals, 6g protein, 1g carbs, 0g fat), 40 grams avocado (80 kcals, 0.4g protein, 0.4g net carbs, 8g fat), 1 slice tomato (5 kcals, 1g carbs), 2 strips Jennie-O extra lean turkey bacon (40 kcals, 6g protein, 0g carbs, 1g fat), 1 slice Kraft FF American cheese (25 kcals, 4g protein, 2g carbs, 0g fat). Total - (180 kcals, 16.4g protein, 4.4g net carbs, 9g fat).
  • "Tan velvet" protein frosty (I didn't want to put the food coloring in today): 1/2 cup cottage cheese (80 kcals, 15g protein, 5g carbs, 0g fat) and 1 tbsp. SF/FF cheesecake Jello pudding mix (15 kcals, 3g carbs),1/2 scoop Inspire dutch chocolate cake protein powder (63 kcals, 15g protein, 1g net carbs, 0g fat), ice, water, sweeteners. Total - (158 kcals, 30g protein, 9g carbs, 0g fat).
  • 4 Bariatric Advantage calcium lozenges (16 kcals, 4g net carbs)
  • 2 Celebrate orange multivitamins (10 kcals, 2g net carbs)
  • 2 Celebrate grape iron + c (10 kcals, 3g net carbs)
Total:
915 calories
121.4g protein
53.1% kcals from protein
42g net carbs
18.4% kcals from net carbs
22.5g fat
22.1% kcals from fat.

Exercise: I started the day with the Leslie Sansone "Walk Strong" aerobics DVD, so got lots of squats in. In the evening, I did the Ana Caban Intermediate Pilates DVD. I really need to get back into an early morning GYM routine involving more elliptical use, though. Maybe that would jump start my weight loss? I've been fluctuating around the same spot in the low 180s for nearly three months now, and my motivation to keep losing weight is starting to wane. Is my body telling me it's time for maintenance? I think my weight is still too high for that, but why am I so stuck?

Knowing that black women don't lose years of life due to obesity unless their BMIs are over 38 doesn't help matters. Mine is 28.6, still firmly in the overweight category. Although I guess that research doesn't say anything about their quality of life.

Sunday, May 2, 2010

What I Ate: May 2, 2010

  • Strawberries and white chocolate protein frosty: 1/2 scoop Matrix strawberry cream protein powder (55 kcals, 11.5g protein, 1g carbs, 0.8g fat), 1/2 cup fat-free cottage cheese (80 kcals, 15g protein, 5g carbs, 0g fat), 1 tbsp. SF/FF Jello pudding mix (15 kcals, 3g carbs), SF white chocolate syrup, ice. Total - (150 kcals, 26.5g protein, 9g carbs, 0.8g fat). Wow. This is the most frosty-like texture I've achieved thus far. The main thing is to make sure the base doesn't contain too much liquid; you have to be really judicious to achieve the right balance for texture.
  • Tofu scramble: 2/5 of Nasoya lite firm tofu block (80 kcals, 14g protein, 2g net carbs, 3g fat), 20 grams avocado (40 kcals, 0.2g protein, 0.2g net carbs, 4g fat), 25 grams onion (10 kcals, 1.5g net carbs), 30 grams green bell pepper (6 kcals, 0.2g protein, 1g net carbs, 0g fat), 20 grams tomato (4 kcals, 0.2g protein, 0.6g net carbs, 0g fat), a few pieces rehydrated dried porcinis (about 10 kcals, 0.7g protein, 1g net carbs, 0g fat), 1 slice Kraft FF Swiss (25 kcals, 4g protein, 2g carbs, 0g fat), 1 tbsp. FF I Can't Believe It's Not Butter (5 kcals, 1g carbs). Total - (180 kcals, 19.3g protein, 9.3g carbs, 7g fat). This was incredibly delicious, but gosh - so filling! I overestimated my pouch size; I guess tofu is more dense than egg substitute and salad! I made the tofu look like eggs with turmeric, a little mustard, and soy sauce. I had to stop in the middle and eat this slowly. I was trying this out for my May dinner for mom. It was good, but I think I'll probably axe the cheese and add more onion when I make it for her. Maybe more mushrooms also. Next time I make it for myself, I'll stick with 1/5 of the tofu!
  • White chocolate frosty: 1/2 cup cottage cheese (80 kcals, 15g protein, 5g carbs, 0g fat) and 1 tbsp. SF/FF white chocolate Jello pudding mix (15 kcals, 3g carbs) whizzed in the blender with SF white chocolate syrup, water, and ice. Total - (95 kcals, 15g protein, 8g carbs, 0g fat).
  • 1 kiwi (45 kcals, 1g protein, 8.8g net carbs, 0.4g fat)
  • Bacon/avocado/tomato omelet: 1/4 cup egg substitute (30 kcals, 6g protein, 1g carbs, 0g fat), 20 grams avocado (48 kcals, 0.2g protein, 0.2g net carbs, 5g fat), 1 slice tomato (5 kcals, 1g carbs), 2 strips Jennie-O extra lean turkey bacon (40 kcals, 6g protein, 0g carbs, 1g fat), 1 slice Kraft FF American cheese (25 kcals, 4g protein, 2g carbs, 0g fat). Total - (148 kcals, 16.2g protein, 4.2g net carbs, 6g fat). This was incredibly and amazingly delicious. I could eat omelets for every meal (obviously, since almost every meal this weekend was either an omelet/scramble or a protein frosty.)
  • Red velvet protein frosty with yet another change: 1/2 cup cottage cheese (80 kcals, 15g protein, 5g carbs, 0g fat) and 1 tbsp. SF/FF cheesecake Jello pudding mix (15 kcals, 3g carbs), 1 tbsp. cocoa (10 kcals, 1g net carbs), 1/2 scoop Inspire dutch chocolate cake protein powder (63 kcals, 15g protein, 1g net carbs, 0g fat), ice, water, sweeteners, red food coloring. Total - (168 kcals, 30g protein, 10g carbs, 0g fat).
  • Finally tried the carbalose flour at like midnight - I wound up eating a lot and busting my daily numbers, yet again. 2/3 cup Carbquik (180 kcals, 12g protein, 4g net carbs, 12g fat), 3 slices Kraft FF cheese (75 kcals, 12g protein, 6g net carbs, 0g fat).
  • 3 tbsp. half and half over the course of the day at Sbux (60 kcals, 0g protein, 3g carbs, 6g fat)
  • 4 Bariatric Advantage calcium lozenges (16 kcals, 4g net carbs)
  • 2 Celebrate orange multivitamins (10 kcals, 2g net carbs)
  • 2 Celebrate grape iron + c (10 kcals, 3g net carbs)
Total:
1,137 calories
132g protein
46.4% kcals from protein
71.3g net carbs
25.1% kcals from net carbs
32.2g fat
25.5% kcals from fat.

I briskly walked 3 miles at the park this afternoon. I meant to do Pilates too, but "life got in the way." I'm heading to work on the early side in the morning, so hopefully will do a workout DVD or 2 in the AM.

What I Ate: May 1, 2010

  • 1 scoop Nectar cappuccino (90 kcals, 23g protein, 0g carbs, 0g fat) in 1/2 cup fat-free cottage cheese (80 kcals, 15g protein, 5g carbs, 0g fat) and calorie-free fixins. Total - (170 kcals, 38g protein, 5g carbs, 0g fat).
  • About 1/3 of a Nectar fuzzy navel shake - this was OK, but not worth giving up a meal for. So, I stopped and made my scramble . . . (35 kcals, 7.6g protein, 1g carbs, 0g fat)
  • Broccoli cheese fluffy scramble: 1/2 cup egg substitute (60 kcals, 12g protein, 2g carbs, 0g fat), 1/4 cup So Delicious fake coconut milk (13 kcals, 0.3g protein, 0.3g carbs, 1.3g fat), 75 grams steamed broccoli (22 kcals, 2g protein, 2g net carbs, 0g fat), 20 grams diced yellow onion (8 kcals, 1.3g net carbs), 2 slices fat-free Kraft American cheese (50 kcals, 8g protein, 4g carbs, 0g fat), 1 tsp. mustard (3 kcals), 1 tbsp. fat-free I Can't Believe It's Not Butter (5 kcals, 1g carb). Total - (161 kcals, 22.3g protein, 10.6g net carbs, 1.3g fat).
  • 1 kiwi (45 kcals, 1g protein, 8.8g net carbs, 0.4g fat) and 22 pistachios (88 kcals, 2.2g protein, 2.2g net carbs, 6.6g fat). Total - (133 kcals, 3.2g protein, 11g net carbs, 7g fat).
  • 1/2 cup cottage cheese (80 kcals, 15g protein, 5g carbs, 0g fat) and 1 tbsp. SF/FF cheesecake Jello pudding mix (15 kcals, 3g carbs) whizzed in the blender with SF white chocolate syrup, water, and ice. Total - (95 kcals, 15g protein, 8g carbs, 0g fat). OMG good! First time I tried to create something in the blender without protein powder, and it was a rousing success. Who needs soft-serve ice cream when you can eat this? Yes, it's that good! And it's terrifically WLS-friendly!
  • Another broccoli-cheese scramble: Broccoli cheese fluffy scramble: 1/2 cup egg substitute (60 kcals, 12g protein, 2g carbs, 0g fat), 60 grams steamed broccoli (17 kcals, 1.5g protein, 1.5g net carbs, 0g fat), 25 grams diced yellow onion (10 kcals, 1.5g net carbs), 1 slice fat-free Kraft American cheese (25 kcals, 4g protein, 2g carbs, 0g fat), 1 tsp. mustard (3 kcals), 1 tbsp. fat-free I Can't Believe It's Not Butter (5 kcals, 1g carb). Total - (120 kcals, 17.5g protein, 8g net carbs, 0g fat).
  • Another spin on the red velvet shake, this time without the protein powder but with more cottage cheese: 1/2 cup cottage cheese (80 kcals, 15g protein, 5g carbs, 0g fat) and 1 tbsp. SF/FF cheesecake Jello pudding mix (15 kcals, 3g carbs), 1 tbsp. cocoa (10 kcals, 1g net carbs), ice, water, sweeteners, red food coloring. Total - (105 kcals, 15g protein, 9g carbs, 0g fat). This was delicious, but a little less cream-cheesy than the yogurt/cream-cheese based shake. The last one tasted like cream cheese frosting with a hint of the red velvet cake flavor, but this one was better balanced. Still would like a little bit more of a cream cheesy flavor though.
  • 4 tbsp. half and half over the course of the day at Sbux (80 kcals, 0g protein, 4g carbs, 8g fat)
  • 4 Bariatric Advantage calcium lozenges (16 kcals, 4g net carbs)
  • 2 Celebrate orange multivitamins (10 kcals, 2g net carbs)
  • 2 Celebrate grape iron + c (10 kcals, 3g net carbs)
Total:
935 calories
118.6g protein
50.7% kcals from protein
65.6g net carbs
28.1% kcals from net carbs
16.3g fat
15.7% kcals from fat.

My exercise today was a 5-mile walk at Riverfront Park. It was fun :)